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When did being 26 become the new 36?
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see...

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end

Stolen from LKV....miss ya lil sis

"Come to the edge" he said.
"We are afraid" they said.
"Come to the edge" he said.
They came.
He pushed them.
And they flew.


I possibly could be an Assistant High School (and middle school) band director in Mississippi. West Point, MS to be exact.

My friend has a job there, at least he 95% has it. (going on formal interview later this week)

It's kinda an ingenious idea. 3 band directors 6-12. One Brass specialist (the head Director) one Percussion specialist (my friend) and they are looking for a Woodwind specialist, which could potentially be me. (my friend wants to recommend me)

Big move. SUPER BIG move. Hot weather...at least I would know one person, and we could get an apartment. I don't know.

Thoughts? I don't know how the South works!

I'm dreaming...of a white...Easter?

Spring Break...you'd think I'd be all excited...but I am all sick.

Something that resembles the flu/cold/sinuses/bronchitus.

But I'm getting better! I left the house today! (sidenote: haven't left the house or had anything else but PJ's on since the last day of school which was Thursday)

My good friend from college Jayme is now in Arizona...maybe I should have visited her? (If I wasn't sick!)

I need a change in scene, man. This whole livin' at home thing just isn't working for me anymore (was it ever?)

Bored this week? Well so am I! Call me people, we can solve our boredom!

end of an era...

yes, an era living in pj's.

stayed in my robe and pj's ALL DAY...watched Gone With the Wind...I love that movie so much. I wish I were Scarlett, and in many ways I can relate to her. Too many Ashley's in my life (guys that don't relly love me back, and I'll wake up one day and realize I don't love them either), and not one Rhett (true love)...I can only survive and obtain a Rhett if I can survive and thrive on my own, as did Scarlett. So there's the answer to my problems! Thank you Gone With the Wind! (Oh, if it were only that easy...)

Prof. Dev. Day tomorrow a.k.a. time to mentally get back to 'reality'. But now I feel so helpless, I can't make decisions, and I am mentally freaked out for what is ahead in the next month or so. I just need someone to tell me what to do. And I've become "comfortable" in this lifestyle of the last week...it's made me ponder - what's the point? What's the point in working and stressing and trying so hard...what's the point of life? To work hard so you have health coverage and $$$? That's what it seems...tell me, what's the point in life?
I <3 snow days. They totally rock. I was so not in the mood to teach - I just wanted to sleep till noon, shovel snow, and watch Project Runway re-runs all day...which I did.

Happy Singles Awareness Day aka hallmark cash-in day aka St. V-day

every time I look at a picture of him, it makes my heart sigh. Maybe one day it can be, maybe the time is not right now. Maybe he is my dream guy and everyone else will be compared to him. Maybe I have to be ok/improve myself, and it could happen. Maybe I have to show him just how much he means to me.

but my memory is haunted by that kiss...I dream about it all the time...

And if you think you know who I am talking about, you are dead wrong.

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music

And it breaks my heart

oh the coffee house

Random guy named Dave starting talking to me. Bought me a hot chai. Guessed that I was a teacher (LOL). Gave me his email. Lives near Hartland.

That is so crazy!

This is PROOF that it only happens when you don't want it to/don't expect it to.

how rude

Why do my guy friends just all of a sudden stop talking to me? What the crap!

professional development day tomorrow!

means I do nothing but clean and organize my area...which it is in dire need of. Phase II of Cleaning Up needs to begin!

I just went CRAZY on facebook, posted a bunch of pictures...why not?

I am so intrigued and fascinated by someone...it's lovely :)

P.S. - My orchestra ROCKS!...in their own way ;)

P.S.S. - remember all those meaningful posts I used to do...yeah...